Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)
Confidence. It’s something I’ve struggled with my entire life. As a young girl, I lacked the confidence I needed to interact openly with others, to speak my mind, or to share my thoughts. I walked with head bowed low and had a hard time looking others in the eye. Eyes are the windows to the soul, or so I’ve been told. I certainly didn’t want anyone seeing inside of me — to the filth, the dirt, the darkness or the shame.
Then He spoke to me, like a whisper in the night, and He beckoned me to come.
But I wondered how one such as me could approach such a holy God. I was most certainly not without spot or wrinkle and I had not yet been encountered by His love. Yet still He drew me. And I yearned for Him, to know Him, to feel His touch. I longed to be washed clean, made whole, and without sin.
I stood that day, and with heart trembling and knees shaking I approached the Throne of Grace, and asked for His mercy to come. Although I didn’t feel bold at the time, I was overtaken by a confidence I had never known before — This was my God, my Lord, my Savior — and He loved me. He called me by name and said that I could come boldly, with confidence, assured of His love.
I am still learning to boldly come, but I am thankful that I took those first shaky steps many years ago and bowed low so that He could pick me up from the ashes. In fear and trembling I came, and with boldness and confidence I come. I freely receive His grace and mercy today, and with confidence and boldness I give this same grace and mercy to others.
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