*Disclaimer: This post is not intended to put myself down or to make you feel sorry for me. This is my reality and I don’t care to hide it any longer. I’ve been wallowing in all sorts of “why not me” and coveting the beauty of others that I’ve decided being real with my life, messy and all, speaks more of the beauty of Christmas, at least for me.
I had started a post entitled, “Awaiting His Arrival” and thought I would write about Mary, how she pondered in her heart the arrival of the Son of God. What were the questions she had of God about His son? What did God share with her about Him?
But then it all sort of dissolved into nothing. You see, that is the post I wanted to write. I wanted my voice to be heard for Advent. My heart wanted to be taken down this path, to chime in with my thoughts on this beautiful season, to “fit in” with the rest for what the blogging world has been doing over the last couple of weeks. God didn’t allow it.
Honestly, I’ve been all sorts of overwhelmed lately, for a couple of months now. I can’t really blame it on the book, although getting a book published and getting a launch team together with reviews & giveaways can be exhausting. Somewhere along the way I lost my voice, or so it seems. I long for the deeper revelation of God’s heart. I’ve sat, prayed, cried, tried in my own strength. But I’m not hearing. At least nothing that I can put together in pretty little paragraphs for you all to read.
I’ve been a little down over the beautiful pictures I’ve been seeing on Facebook, Instagram and blogs over the Christmas grandeur of others. Pretty packages, white Christmas, beautifully decked halls. A beautiful home is something I’ve always wanted. But then I am reminded that any home can be beautiful, because it’s about the people who live there, not about the stuff. If I’m not careful I can find myself being sucked into the woes of “why not me”. It’s not a place I want to linger for too long.
So, I thought I’d be real tonight and share my Messy Christmas Home Tour. Because it really doesn’t have to be beautiful. Jesus is here, in the mess, the dust, the chaos, and He loves me all the same. I think it will free my heart from a place I’ve been sitting far too long.
In the spirit of The Nester, I give you my reality. And if you haven’t checked out the Christmas Tour of Homes at the Nester’s, you really should. I am too embarrassed to link up even though I believe her when she says it doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful.
Here is my 2013 Messy Christmas Home Tour, or a peak into my beautiful chaos!
At first glance, it doesn’t look too bad. My presents are wrapped in traditional wrapping paper, unlike the brown paper packages tied up with all sorts of lovely like some of my friends. Pay particular attention to the dog toy, wires and unvacuumed carpet. And did you see I forgot to remove the family photos from behind the tree so that they would not be photographed.
This is real life, my friends. Our nativity shares space with the DVDs the children forget to put away. Gasp! Jesus and The Lord of the Rings in the same place. And my lovely daughter’s wedding photo. What does that have to do with Christmas and why on earth is it there?
The other Nativity
This one is in the den, where youngest son spends time with Nintendo DS and Legos. And rocks!
Father Christmas surrounded by Joy and Noel, together with battery operated candles share space with books, kleenex, nail clippers and other random items that I was too lazy to remove from said mantle, not to mention the fact that I do not have much Christmas decor to display so said shelves would have been empty if everything was removed. Wow, that was a long sentence!
The beautiful scent of cinnamon in my lovely Mary and Martha pillar, surrounded by salt and pepper shakers and homeschool bookcase in the background. I don’t think I even own a table cloth.
The Kitchen Counter
We try to have some sort of Christmas decor in our living room, den and kitchen. This poor fellow is surrounded by all sorts of nonsense. Although, I will say the dark chocolate sea salt caramels are amazing!
Our stockings are not hung by the chimney with care. We have a fireplace, but we never use it and it’s been taken over by the tv and other audio visual things. So, we hang our stockings on the stair case, with messy wiring and a pile of teenage daughter’s clothes which have been there for a month which I refuse to pick up for her. The life of a mom.
Well friends, there you have it. My messy Christmas home tour! And again, this is not meant to put myself down or to make you have pity on me. I am taking a step to be even more real with my life. I refuse to post only prefect photos. Most of my photos are stock photos anyways. Please don’t judge. I have no eye for photography. I pay to make my blog look beautiful. I’m such a fraud!
Now, let’s hope and pray I can get this place cleaned up before 16 family members embark here for Christmas dinner!
Linking up with my dear friend Beth for Three Word Wednesday, on a Thursday, because sometimes life gets in the way. Also linking up with Crystal for Behind The Scenes where we share the real story behind the photos.